From the first moment I saw So Worth Loving I fell in love with the movement. Now I am grateful for the chance to write for it and inspire myself as well as a few others. You’ll be seeing me on this blog a few times a month so this post is to inform you about who I am, the things I do, and my story.
I live in Florida, but I’m always cold; which is probably why I love sweaters and quilts so much. I’m a sophomore in high school and am also a duel enrolled taking college course at the local community college. I usually always have a plan and a predetermined path of where I want to go and what I want to do in life. For eight years I have been studying martial arts and I absolutely love it; I am a second degree black belt and an instructor trainee. Learning to let go of the handle bars and having God steer is something that I am still working on. I adore anything that falls under the “cute and cozy” category; which usually includes candles, the fall season, coffee, socks, thrifting, baking, quilts, hanging up Christmas lights in October, diy projects, record players, anthroplogie, journaling, Disney World, boots, wearing dresses all the time, headbands, tea, newly washed sheets, cardigans, sparkles, flowers, and books.
I love reading and writing. Picture this, you’re in the mall and you come across a girl sitting on the bench outside a bookstore and she has stack of classic books like The Great Gatsby and Catcher in the Rye, and another stack with things like Harry Potter, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close, and Perks of Being A Wallflower, as well as things like How to Make the Perfect Cupcake, Zombie Survival Guide, and The Starbucks Experience; yeah, that’s me.
I work with Good Women Project and I run their Tumblr page; Good women Project is a movement dedicated to re-defining what a good woman is. I am delighted and grateful to also be working with such a great organization and group of women. I am even more excited about writing for SWL and contributing to two wonderful movements.
Many girls my age have felt/are feeling unhappy, unwanted, unworthy, and unloved. I’ve had times when I felt the exact same way. I’ve cried and punched walls over this and it was not okay. Being able to block out the peer-pressure and negative thoughts is a strength I am blessed with. However, you can only be so strong for so long until you have an emotional breakdown. Mine started happening after a year of taunting, being ignored, and basically being unwanted; after that I believed I wasn’t worthy of anything. I believed I wasn’t interesting, I wasn’t pretty, I wasn’t funny, and I wasn’t worthy of love.
I felt lonely. For a while I waited for my Prince Charming and his horse to come save me from the pit of words people threw at me; Prince Charming never showed up.
After that, I began to get my strength back. And the horrible part was I had to do it by myself, and that is the hardest thing I ever had to do. I couldn’t go to anyone about the problems I’ve been facing because I was the strong one, the one everyone went to for advice and the one with a shoulder to cry on.
I’m here to tell you that you don’t have to go through this alone. You are stronger than the words that are thrown at you. You are more beautiful without the makeup, the surgery, and the designer clothing. Surrounding yourself with people who will care for you, inspire you, and make you happy is the best thing for you. Also well as doing this you want to do and not caring about what people think; that is when you start finding out who you are.